Welcome to MS.
I am glad you have found this place of healing and support.
I hope you know that you are not worthless and that no one has a right to do with you as they please. It is difficult not to believe those messages when they have been pounded into you.
The messages you were told are lies.
a valuable person.
The only ones lacking dignity and value are those who harmed you.
Take your time and look around. You do not want to trigger yourself by reading too many posts at one time.
At your own pace, read the boards and wander into chat. The lounge (chat) is open 24 hours a day though it isn't always populated.
We also have moderated chats called Healing Circles.
They meet on Sunday and Wednesday evenings at 9pm eastern time and one on Tuesday at 19:00 UTC (European and African time zone) which translates to 2 PM Eastern US time zone. The Healing Circle on Tuesdays is scheduled to resume in September.
I am glad you took your T's advice and decided to see what MS has to offer.
Again, welcome to MS.