I'm sorry that your having these horrific nightmares, your a good man and you have 2 wonderful and properly raised kids to prove that. You don't deserve what is happening to you now and little Still didn't deserve what happened to him as a child. Its unfortunate that most perps don't suffer the way that the survivors do. Your right that you will never be normal but normal isn't important, happyness is. Happyness is attainable for you. Your kids and your dawg are just the start. Listen to Obi, he has been thru these nightmares and has come out the other end. Use this tool that MS gives to help accomplish this and NEVER EVER GIVE UP. Please NEVER GIVE UP, there are too many people here who care about you. I am certainly one of them.
"Being with people that understand you...Priceless"
"and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand"
"You don't know what love is...you just do as your told"
"My life has changed. What you take as a simple thing, is not so simple for me anymore"