I cant remember if I ever asked for help during my active drinking days but I did mention the abuse that was inflicted on me to my step-mother (she is not actually my real step mother, its a very long story) although I was in blackout at the time.

I knew I was asking for help as far as my addictions were concerned.

I eventually got sober something I had been trying to do for nigh on thirty years, when all of a sudden reality checked in and I discovered and eventually accepted that I did indeed suffer abuse (including rape) at the hands of a large group of men with similar tastes in adolescent boys during the 1970's. All of my abusers saw themselves as gay and brainwashed me that I was either gay or at the least bisexual, that screwed me up for years. I hasten to add that I am definately not a homophobe.

I asked for help about two years ago and have been having therapy for about 17 months and am I getting any better? I have no idea but I can cry now without a bottle of vodka sloshing around my system, so something is happening.

And all that was left was hope

Archnut

Archnut
What a post. Do not be too hard on yourself about booze. We used it as a coping mechanism or to hide from reality. I have meen in AA for 26years; since I turned 36. Guess that make me a real old fart EH(canadianism). It was a goofy want to do it but what the hell I did not know better. I have just started a new Post on What I did in the past 24hours for me and the little me inside. Have a look and post too. We all should get to share in what we did that was fun for ourselves and the little me inside

Hi Mike

"Guess that make me a real old fart EH"

Hopefully one day at a time I will be an old fart too.

Take care

And all that was left was hope

Archnut

This GRAND OLD FART welcomes LOGAN