I think I'm feed up with life, living and people in general. I have always been quiet and I know what my problems are I do not hide from them. but how the heck can a person move on after experiencing such horrible things!! I am now 37 years old and I am still suffering daily whether its on my mind or not. It is not only a part of me it has made me into who I am today So, how the heck do you trust people that seem to take pleasure in treating others like crap!! where do you find people that can put themselves in others circumstances and try to be understanding or even slightly tolerating and non judgmental?!?!? Is life worth living will the pain ever end? the only thing that I look forward to is the day I will not wake up. I dream about complete silence. I am a painter of children's fantasy worlds they are always colorful full of life, happiness, brightness and joy looking at them makes people feel warm and happy and giggly at the same time. If you saw my painting you would not believe that the person that did them is completely ruined and dead inside I try to share what I think life could be. what I never, ever had or will ever have, or experience for even a fraction of a second. May the All Mighty judge those that take away life and those that take a child's soul.