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#417469 - 11/27/12 10:48 PM A new chapter (Veiled 28)
iamnotbubba Offline

Registered: 06/07/11
Posts: 119
Loc: Colorado
Wow! I'm rather proud of this one. Read my new chapter. Veiled (28)

Thanksgiving was very difficult for me. Full of triggers and pain. I apologize about the delay.


#417470 - 11/27/12 11:14 PM Re: A new chapter (Veiled 28) [Re: iamnotbubba]
traveler Offline

Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3513
Loc: somewhere in Africa
sorry about your Thanksgiving. holidays are tough for me too. maybe that's one reason we live as far from my family as i can get. birthdays are bad too.

this one was really hard to read - not your writing - but the content. i can see why it was hard to live! for me it's not churches that trigger - but schools - the halls, the boys' rest rooms, the locker rooms. not quite the same - but similar maybe.

thank you for another installment and for taking us along.
As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago

#417528 - 11/28/12 11:35 AM Re: A new chapter (Veiled 28) [Re: iamnotbubba]
Publius Offline

Registered: 03/13/12
Posts: 425
Loc: OH
Very well written iamnotbubba!

I know it was incredibly trying both physically and emotionally for you to go into that church. The way you described your struggle I know it was fought a minute at a time. Regardless of your difficulties YOU DID IT. You went back to church and proved that you can be safe there even if it was hard this was a positive step. Congratulations : )

As for "God's representative on Earth" I know you know that is not the case. I am non-Christian but if I recall God's only representative on Earth was Jesus of Nazareth. The rest of us are on an equal plane. Furthermore Mark 9:42 states: “Whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him if a great millstone were hung around his neck and he were thrown into the sea." Jesus used the word "causes" because he knew children need to be taught sin and are the most susceptible to guile and deceit when it comes to being subjected to sin itself. The Catholics have a saying: "corruptio optima pessima" or corruption of the best is the worst. That disgraced minister was not God's representative and I am sorry for your suffering at the hands of someone you trusted to fulfill that role.

Way to keep moving forward man! You faced your fears and came out on the other side without being abused and affirmed in the reality of your own strength : )
"Life is like this dark tunnel. You may not always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you keep moving, you will come to a better place." ~ General Iroh

#417537 - 11/28/12 01:21 PM Re: A new chapter (Veiled 28) [Re: iamnotbubba]
Jude Offline

Registered: 08/09/12
Posts: 1600
Loc: New England
Don't forget to treasure your wife. A person who supports and loves your is priceless.
Seems I've got to have a change of scene
Every night I have the strangest dreams
Imprisoned by the way it could have been
Left here on my own or so it seems
I've got to leave before I start to scream
Joe Cocker

#417625 - 11/29/12 09:45 AM Re: A new chapter (Veiled 28) [Re: iamnotbubba]
iamnotbubba Offline

Registered: 06/07/11
Posts: 119
Loc: Colorado
Thank you thank you all for reading!!

Publius, you are right thank you for that. it has been a year since that day, I am still nervous about trying to go back to church again.

Jude, i do treasure her, she is AWESOME!!!!!



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