This past summer - I had opened up to an individual regarding my SA. Everything went relatively well until one night we all got drunk (very drunk) and decided in his mind to sexually assault me in the middle of the night.
As in my past, I did not fight. He had a good 50lbs on me and was somewhat mentally unstable and had numerouse assault charges outstanding with the local police.
Shortly afterwards, he accused me of raping him, but it was the exact opposite > he was the perp NOT ME.
I have not been able to speak to the individual since then, but whenevery I hear someone speak of him .. it has become a TRIGGER and I just want to confront him.
I was almost on the verge of tears last night .. why do I allow this to consume my mind!!

Dude

I am so sorry this happened .

You are in the right place here- men who understand, have been there, and have dealt with ASA and assault. The men here are safer and more deserving of your trust and confidence than out there. We know.

I can't tell you what to do- but I think the recent attack
And your urge to confront this perp are serious and not to be taken lightly.

Reach out and ask for help.

Be good to yourself.

It is worth it.

Its sad, but as survivors we have to be careful who we disclose to and who we hang out with, to keep ourselves safe at all times. This was not your fault, but don't count this rapist among your friends any longer.