Thank you for the messages of hope in PM and on this forum.

I saw my Dr. today and explained what was going on, and my previous experience of using low grade testosterone to alleviate anxiety and depression and he wrote me a up a prescription. I was very surprised that he was so willing to work with me on this without any reservation.

Got the patch an hour ago, and already am starting to notice a difference in my mood, and physiological change (I've had a tense muscle in my left butt cheek for as long as I can remember, and when I was on testosterone before, the muscle finally relaxed. I just now noticed that less than an hour of putting the patch on, the muscle has relaxed).

Feeling hopeful for the first time in weeks.

Thanks for your support guys.

This makes me SO happy to read!! We are all there for you!! *HUGS*

(((((((((((( Magellan / Dillon / D ))))))))))))

oh - such a relief!
so good that you are still with us - and have support and hope!

sorry - i'm lapsing into Enlish teacher mode here -
yesterday i taught this in Brit Lit class - and thought of you:

No man is an island entire of itself; every man
is a piece of the continent, a part of the main;
if a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe
is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as
well as any manner of thy friends or of thine
own were; any man's death diminishes me,
because I am involved in mankind.
And therefore never send to know for whom
the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.
- John Donne

i was really feeling that loss - the fear that you were gone. and feeling diminished by it.
thank you for struggling through this - and overcoming the "demons" of darkness!

Lee

PS - just as your death would have been a loss for all of us,
your survival is a VICTORY for all of us!

I was really worried, but now I am exalted to hear that you're doing ok. I know its tough, and at times it seems that there is no point to...well anything...but there always is. take care.

Glad you are taking care of yourself, Dillon, and sharing your story here.

Magellen,

As you often say: "YAAAAAYYYYY!"

We love you!

Jude

Dillon

This made my day!!!!

Hope is everything...so glad you have found yours.

I have been so worried for you - this is a HUGE relief.

Thanks for not giving up..on the world...on us..on yourself.

You ARE a beautiful creation (inside and out) - no matter what lies other may say and you might beleive.

Lee

My doc has prescribed a testosterone shot in the butt once per month. I've had 3 shots so far. I'm also getting a thyroid pill every morning. The two seem to work together. After several months of this it's starting to really take effect. The testosterone shot seems to release it's effect somewhat unevenly so that on some days I feel it a lot more strongly than others.

Puffer

I'd love to hear how the Test is treating your anxiety (assuming you have it) or PTSD?

I discovered that when I took it before, so many levels of tension and anxiety started melting off of my body... I had no idea how much tension I was carrying in my body until I started taking the testosterone.

I'm so glad to have a doctor who's committed to helping me resolve this in unorthodox ways (rather than sending me to a shrink and plying me with experimental psychotropics).

I'm so relieved. And thrilled. And glad. And starting to feel hopeful again.

D

Just checking the boards quickly before I go to bed. I'll definitely sleep better tonight having read this. Thanks, Dillon.