bittersweet/happy-go-lucky:
CCR "Bad moon arising"

Korn: Path of Totality (explicit version)
the whole cd

kinda sums up some feelings n thoughts...

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here are some of the lyrics *WARNING* (it may trigger some) i listen to this almost everyday n i can't believe how painfully true this is (least for me)

KORN
"Narcissistic Cannibal"
(feat. Skrillex & Kill The Noise)

Don't wanna be sly and defile you
Desecrate my mind and rely on you
I just wanna break this crown
But it's hard when I'm so run down

And you're so cynical, Narcissistic Cannibal!
Got to bring myself back from the dead!

Sometimes, I hate, the life, I made
Everything's wrong every time
Pushing on I can't escape
Everything that comes my way
Is haunting me taking its sweet time

Holding on I'm lost in a haze
Fighting life to the end of my days

Don't wanna be rude but I have to
Nothing's good about the hell you put me through
I just need to look around
See that life that has come unbound

And you're so cynical, Narcissistic Cannibal
Got to bring myself back from the dead

Sometimes, I hate, the life I made
Everything's wrong every time
Pushing on I can't escape
Everything that comes my way
Is haunting me taking its sweet time

Sometimes, I hate, the life I made
Everything's wrong every time
Pushing on I can't escape
Everything that comes my way
Is haunting me taking its sweet time

Holding on I'm lost in a haze
Fighting life to the end of my days

Holding on I'm lost in a haze
Fighting life to the end of my days

"Kill Mercy Within"

Disgraced
Expendable, we are not really real
A mirage of solitude is what they try to heal and
I will not be made to feel we are sealed in a fake charade

Spewing vile atrocities
Bringing existence to its knees
I will manifest my sins and
I will Kill Mercy Within
Immersed in this hypnotic spell
Influenced by the hate that swells
I'm not terrified anymore
There's nothing left but open sores

Disengaged
Relinquish the reality, I've known
I'm feeling like I'm alienated from my own and
I will not be made to feel we are sealed in a fake charade

Spewing vile atrocities
Bringing existence to its knees
I will manifest my sins and
I will Kill Mercy Within
Immersed in this hypnotic spell
Influenced by the hate that swells
I'm not terrified anymore
There's nothing left but open sores

Spewing vile atrocities
Bringing existence to its knees
I will manifest my sins and
I will Kill Mercy Within
Immersed in this hypnotic spell
Influenced by the hate that swells
I'm not terrified anymore
There's nothing left but open sores

Nothing left but open sores


"My Wall"

And along came something sacred
I never knew what I found
The demons dance around, elated
They're hurting me

I put my wall up each day
You tear it down
I hide in my space
The space you found
And one of these days
I'll come unbound
The feelings I hate
Will finally drown

Falling awake in a nightmare
Images of horror abound
Thought I stumbled upon salvation
Hell I found

I put my wall up each day
You tear it down
I hide in my space
The space you found
And one of these days
I'll come unbound
The feelings I hate
Will finally drown

Well, I'll never be the same
It's the greatest lie ever told
No, I'll never be the same
I sold my soul

I put my wall up each day
You tear it down
I hide in my space
The space you found
And one of these days
I'll come unbound
The feelings I hate
Will finally drown

"Bleeding Out"

I'm staring at a face
I don't recognize
Rotten and replaced
Lifeless and benign
You can never say
That I didn't try
I can not erase
What's in my mind

I'm the one to give to you
I'm the one to break you thru
Anything you ever do will
Eat you up and impale you

I'm Bleeding Out
Been crucified by trusting you
Hate turns to shame
By praising you, adoring fool
I'm the one that set you free
Bound to burn for eternity 'cause
I'm Bleeding Out
You're never there when I need you

My thoughts they interlace
Been spun out for sometime
I wander in this maze
An act that is sublime
You can never say
That I didn't try
I cannot erase
What's in my mind

I'm the one to give to you
I'm the one to break you thru
Anything you ever do will
Eat you up and impale you

I'm Bleeding Out
Been crucified by trusting you
Hate turns to shame
By praising you, adoring fool
I'm the one that set you free
Bound to burn for eternity 'cause
I'm Bleeding Out
You're never there when I need you

I'm Bleeding Out
Been crucified by trusting you
Hate turns to shame
By praising you, adoring fool
I'm the one that set you free
Bound to burn for eternity 'cause
I'm Bleeding Out
You're never there when I need you


"Illuminati"

I can't believe what's happening
Where is your self control
Why can't you just be honest
The corruption takes its toll

You rape our hope
Too proud to cope
You built this house of shame
You smile, you gloat
This disease you promote
An infection is what we are now

I can't believe this happened
The fear starts to grab hold
Then anger starts to take over
I will not be controlled

You rape our hope
Too proud to cope
You built this house of shame
You smile, you gloat
This disease you promote
An infection is what we are now

They're taking over now
Eating up our souls somehow
Taking over now
Parasites, they run around
The culprits won't be found
They lie behind this mask of wealth
They're taking over now
Illuminati they hide

You rape our hope
Too proud to cope
You built this house of shame
You smile, you gloat
This disease you promote
An infection is what we are now

You rape our hope
Too proud to cope
You built this house of shame
You smile, you gloat
This disease you promote
An infection is what we are now

I've been listening to Ocean's Kingdom just about every day this week. It's the first of Paul McCartney's instrumental albums I've heard. I plan on finding the other two now.

Hollywood Undead
"Hear Me Now"

[JDOG]
As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I wear my crown of thorns and pull the knife out my chest.
I keep searching for something that I never seem to find.
But maybe I won’t, because I left it all behind.
Now I’m stuck with this, and that’ll never change
Always a part of me, until the very last day.

Where to go from here? What road to travel on?
I spent my whole life choosing, and I always chose wrong.
Will I try to have the will to be alive?
Will I try because I’ve never seen the light?
Blow it to the ground and it’s now you see,
You spent your whole life taking the best of me
[DANNY]
Where’d you go? Where’s your home?
How’d you end up all alone?
Can you hear me now?
There’s no light, there’s no sound.
Hard to breathe, when you’re underground.
Can you hear me now? Hear me now
[JOHNNY 3 TEARS]
How long can I keep pretending to be?
That all the stars in the sky could mean something to me.
Heaven will open up if I live on my knees.
A man of many words, but a man of few deeds.
Walking these streets, so absent of hope.

A pillow of concrete, a man with no home.
Lend him a hand, then we’re walking the way.
Leave the virtue of pity, but we live with the shame.
So scared to dream in a world with no sunlight.
When you wake up, you know it’s darker than last night.
Quickly we forget, sacrifice gone by.
Born to walk away, been walking my whole life.
[DANNY]
Where’d you go? Where’s your home?
How’d you end up all alone?
Can you hear me now?
There’s no light, there’s no sound.
Hard to breathe, when you’re underground.
Can you hear me now? Hear me now
[DANNY]
Look into my eyes and I see
What do I see? Nothing at all
Take another look around me
What do I see? Nothing at all
[DANNY]
Where’d you go? Where’s your home?
How’d you end up all alone?
Can you hear me now?
There’s no light, there’s no sound.
Hard to breathe, when you’re underground.
Can you hear me now? Hear me now
[DANNY]
Can you hear me? Hear me now

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Give the songs a chance they might not be what you are expecting from me they all of meaning in them and things we all can relate to trust me . Let me no what you think and how they might effect your life . This is a great thread by the way

This is a very powerful song to listen to when you feel like giving up hold on for one more day
Don't give up


This song is about taking this life and asking to be made whole again
very deep
Take this life


This song song is about your family tree that you do not have to except what was handed to you by your families guidance or should i say lack of guiding leading and parenting great song you do not have to live the life that was handed down to you Family Tree





This song is about rising from the ashes it is possible to overcome
i will rise



Broken by Lifehouse
I do not know if this was posted but this song will touch all of us in a special way it will bring you to tears it is very deep and it describes all of us in a special way
Broken



This song is about all the times we feel apart feel lonely and even apart from God
Times

This song is more of a rap but it talks about our struggle and the real video shows sexual abuse specifically and the lyrics mention it also this could be triggering but it is a really strong song and speaks to our struggle Fly away


This song came from a rapper it was the first person to mention being molested in his lyrics his name is Bizzy Bone and he was kidnapped molested and than was rescued from the show Americas most wanted and than bounced from foster home to foster home . I could relate to him so much i lived the same life he did selling drugs and living that life .

the lyrics go " but i keep my skeletons understand me what if i said i was molested would you look at me pale but i keep on baleen and i hope i don't go to hell stressed out o well"
Nobody can Stop me



Demons surround me all the time
This is a fast paced song but i included the vid with lyrics give it a chance it is hard to understand but when you get the lyrics it is an awesome song when he says
Get away for safety, in a coma like state, invade me/ Everyone say: "Hey, hey, he's crazy"/ Premonitions, kick pushin' daisies/ Wait, they chase to slay me/ Paranoid, mortal to the paranormal, jumpin' out portals/ Kinetical energy formal
Man it is a really schizophrenic song that i can relate to
Demons surround me

don't see this one listed yet - it is religious in nature, but the words touch that empty spot in me that so needs compassion:

The Healing has Begun
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Whb-XSOog8k&feature=related

"Robot Boy" by LP


You say you're not gonna fight
'Cause no one would fight for you
And you think there's not enough love
And no one to give it to
And you're sure you've hurt for so long
You've got nothing left to lose
So you say you're not gonna fight
'Cause no one would fight for you

You say the weight of the world
Has kept you from letting go
And you think compassion's a flaw
And you'll never let it show
And you're sure you hurt in a way
That no one will ever know
But someday the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go

Hold on, the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
So hold on, the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
So hold on, the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
Just hold on, the weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go



"Iridescent" - LP again


You were standing in the wake of devastation
And you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
And with the cataclysm raining down
Insides crying "Save me now"
You were there, impossibly alone

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. Let it go

And in a burst of light that blinded every angel
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace
Falling into empty space
No one there to catch you in their arms

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. Let it go

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. Let it go

Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. Let it go