You are good enough... Be good enough for yourself. I understand the loneliness and isolation, but you can reach out, as you have done tonight. You can and will receive love in return. Your survivor's battle is his own. Please try not to take any of it personally. His choices are not a reflection of your worth, they are a reflection of how he feels about his own worth. Show him by example what it is to love oneself wholly and unconditionally. Do this for him, and do this for yourself. Seek therapy, seek friendship, but please know you are never alone. We stand witness to your pain. We have all been there (read my Thought that Keep Me Up at Night Threads to know I have felt similar pain, confusion and isolation), but life is like an ocean; it is fluid and there is always an upswing. Ride out this storm. You are worth it and you always will be. (((HUG))) please don't ever give up on yourself. You are precious and your life has purpose. This purpose may not have yet revealed itself, but be patient and it will. Inner joy is attainable by all of us.
I am not your rolling wheels, I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride, I am the sky