Hi there Love you guys.
I am still a virgin.
I dont know if i am gay. I am not crazy about
labelling myself. I just
want to be loved. I am scrared of women.
Ah, men ,too!
I need cuddling. I need a friend -i want
this gone. I dont want this shit ,anymore!
I would love to hang-out with a guy.
But i dont think i could perform sexually.
Y'know i even cringe at the word 'sex'.
I worrry too much. But my dad and
what they all did ,is unforgivable!
My brother , i think wants -for him and i
to connect. I dont want this to happen.
My mom sure does. I think my mom thinks i am
gay. I say this b/c last week my dad and i
seen an older couple kissing outside a coffee
shop. I said "i like that". And i added how
i seen an older couple holding hands a day earlier.
And adding that i love romance.
He brought this up while the both of us were
having coffee with my mom that very evening and
i said "yeah i like it when people hold hands,
it doesnt matter how old you are".
So my mom with great concern said to me" Goran
please dont do that in Toronto, esp. Preodrag
(her nephew ,who lives there) ,is there- they
wont understand.
So i immedatley was thinking " what the hell"?
she must assume that i am gay..lwhat else could it
be ? I told her i never had a girlfriend in
my hometown ( i lived up in Northern Manitoba till i
was 24).
Thanks for everything you guys.

Goran

Hi Goran, my friend, good to see you!
Your post is so cool man
Who is not scared you know of sex things ?
You are not alone, many of us are confused and in some fear from sharing intimacy.
And I love seeing older people holding their hands or giving kisses to each other. I would love to see myself in such scene in 30 years

Love you
(((Goran)))

I want to be close to a man too. Hugged. Loved. I want to feel wanted and cared for. Sometimes I want sex, but I've realized for me that when I want sex, it's all about wanting to feel wanted and loved, so If I can get that without sex, that's what I want.

Cuz everyone else that wanted sex, didn't give a shit for me and I'm sick of feeling like they did.

I want a man I can share my heart with and not be afraid. Honestly I don't think there is anything "gay" about that. Heck we all want to be wanted and accepted and loved regardless of gender.

Shame on your mom for stereo typing you like that. There are cultures today where it's totally normal for two men talking to hold hands. Some middle eastern cultures even people talking business do that. Not sure where our culture picked up this "if your holding hands your gonna F**K each other" idea. Seems stupid to me.

Goran .. don't label yourself or let anyone else label you my friend ..just be Goran!!
Take your time .. love yourself and be happy with yourself!
Hopefully then you will be able to see and appreciate the love you can give and receive from someone else.
As you grow to understand yourself things will become clearer.