i also know i just can't handle any more rejection. and the only way i know of to not get rejected is to not put myself out there in the first place.
Vent all you need to. Thats why we're here. Just one comment. Do something nice for yourself. Something you'll enjoy. No one has to know. Just do it.
"Suffering was the only thing that made me feel I was alive,
Thought thats just what it cost to survive in this world,
...now I haven't got time for the pain... " -Carly Simon now 67!