i also know i just can't handle any more rejection. and the only way i know of to not get rejected is to not put myself out there in the first place.
Vent all you need to. Thats why we're here. Just one comment. Do something nice for yourself. Something you'll enjoy. No one has to know. Just do it.
"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is gone
And I have become comfortably numb."Pink Floyd