I, too, have no evidence of my abuse, and yet it is there, haunting me and hurting me and affecting my sexuality every day.
You are not alone.
Do not deny the feelings of hurt and loss that you have just because you can't find someone to confirm them.
Embrace your hurt self. Your pain is real and you are not crazy.
"There is a Catskill eagle in some souls that can alike dive down into the blackest gorges, and soar out of them again and become invisible in the sunny spaces... even in his lowest swoop the mountain eagle is still higher than other birds upon the plain, even though they soar." -- from Moby-Dick