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#415813 - 11/09/12 06:34 PM "Mom" vs worthless gay boy/man.
petercorbett Offline

Registered: 07/27/08
Posts: 2430
This week on November 11th we (hopefully) have time to pay our respects to those of us whom had the experience of military life. Whether we volunteered or were hand picked by Our Uncle Sam.
This posting isn't meant to belittle those of you for various reasons did not have the privilage to serve.

This is from a boy, who had drilled into his young mind from birth to his 17th birthday, that he was useless, worthless & would never amount to anything, by a mother who was sexually, physically, emotionally & mentally abusing him. This is a letter from him (69) yrs old, and just recently has started to come to terms with that lost boy and himself over those recently surfaced abuse memories, that were commited by her.

A letter to Hell, from a young boy (your son) who always wished that you were dead.

Dear Mrs. Corbett,

I offer you the following list of accomplishments by your son.

Enlisted/volunteered, into the U.S. Air Force, on his 17th birthday, March 13 1956. I wish to thank you for signing me in as I wasn't 18 yrs old.

The awards and decorations on my retired uniform.

Air Force Commendation Medal, with 3 oak leaf clusters. Earned in Vietnam, Germany & Okinawa (Japan). (1969-1978).

Presidential Unit Citation, Vietnam, (1969).

Air Force Outstanding Unit Award, with combat V, Vietnam (1969) 1 Silver oak leaf cluster.(1960-1978).

Air Force Award of Excellence (small unit), Oklahoma, (1976).

Army Good Conduct Medal, Germany, (1959).

Air Force Good Conduct Medal, with 3 oak leaf clusters, (1965-1978).

National Defense Service Medal, (1976).

Republic of Vietnam Campaign Medal, with 3 bronze service stars, Vietnam, (1968-1969).

Korean Defense Service Medal, Korea, (1976-1978)

Air Force Longevity Service Award, 4 oak leaf clusters, (1960-1978).

Small Arms Expert Ribbon, (1964).

Vietnamese Cross of Gallantry, with Palm, (unit award), Vietnam (1969)

Vietnam Service Medal, Vietnam, (1968-1969).

So, mom you see that I have proved you wrong, in the end, as indeed I was usefull, I was worth something and indeed I did amount to something. I even have a U.S. Holiday in my honor. VETERANS DAY.

From your son,
Peter C. Corbett
TSgt, USAF, Ret.

This post is about me, but it is my sincerest wish that those of you whom have suffered all these abuses post it here, to PROVE that they were wrong. Heal well my friends.
Pete (Irishmoose)

This is updated a bit as this was in my eary days of recovery. Originally it was posted in the off topic forum. 4 years ago.
I firmly believe that it belongs here in the "Survivors of Female Abuse." forum. There are other brothers of mine here whom have gone through the same effects during their lifetime too.
What has not changed over these past four years is the fact that when I get out of bed in the morning that I have to look around my room, on the walls where I have pictures of my life along to my sons then along to my grandsons. Then on to my military career & those discharge & retirement documents. To prove to myself that my "mom," was DEAD wrong about me being useless, worthless & would never amount to anything unwanted boy. Every day, my brothers, every damn day I stil have to prove & convince myself. Maybe we should change the title of this forum from "Survivors of Female Abuse." To the "Still VICTIMS of Female Abuse." As as of this date I am not a survivor, i'm still her victim. Still having power and control of "her" little/young gay boy/man.

I hope that those of us who were incest victims sexually, emotionally, mentally & physically and are still dealing with this that some day that we will receive the peace & serenity in our lives that we all so richly deserve.

"I will take that lost boys hand, and I will lead him from the depths of darkness into the sunshine, forever into eternity." As he is me.

Edited by petercorbett (11/11/12 01:01 PM)
Working Boys' Home 10-14 yrs old, grades 5-8. 1949-1953
A very humble alumni of the WOR Dahlonega, GA.
May 15-17 2009, Alta, Sep. 2009. Sequoia, 2010.
Hope Springs, 2010.

#415896 - 11/11/12 12:55 AM Re: "Mom" vs worthless gay boy/man. [Re: petercorbett]
Jude Offline

Registered: 08/09/12
Posts: 1369
Loc: New England
Dear Pete,

You have my eternal admiration and thanks for your service to your country. The abuse you suffered at the hands of your mother was certainly undeserved and truly criminal. I know its not nice to say, but: "May she burn in hell".

"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is gone
And I have become comfortably numb."
Pink Floyd

#415986 - 11/12/12 12:17 AM Re: "Mom" vs worthless gay boy/man. [Re: Jude]
pufferfish Offline

Registered: 02/26/08
Posts: 6712
Loc: USA
Brother Pete,

That's excellent.


#417907 - 12/02/12 02:13 AM Re: "Mom" vs worthless gay boy/man. [Re: petercorbett]
Justaname Offline

Registered: 05/30/12
Posts: 17
Woah. smile

Your determination to be somebody and prove the person who abused you completely wrong is astounding.

Keep on healing brother, all the strength in the world to you! smile

#417915 - 12/02/12 10:38 AM Re: "Mom" vs worthless gay boy/man. [Re: petercorbett]
Mountainous Buck Offline

Registered: 12/15/09
Posts: 1626
Loc: Minnesota
Awesome Pete!
We have to take responsibility for what we're not responsible for.

It doesn't matter where you've come from,
It matters where you go" Frank Turner

#417931 - 12/02/12 12:51 PM Re: "Mom" vs worthless gay boy/man. [Re: petercorbett]
JayBro Offline

Registered: 11/13/12
Posts: 221
Loc: Germany
HUGS You are a profound achiever Pete! Even though I do not know you, I am so proud of you.
H.U.G.S.- Helping Us Grow Spiritually

#418360 - 12/06/12 08:19 AM Re: "Mom" vs worthless gay boy/man. [Re: petercorbett]
SamV Offline

Registered: 12/13/09
Posts: 5928
Loc: Talladega, Alabama, USA
Well said and well done Pete and little Pete. Thank you for sharing this affirming moment with us, it is inspiring.
My SENSITIVE Difference

"Lets talk about that."

Go Get A Hug: HUG>porn

*When provoked* "Anyone holding back his sayings is possessed of knowledge. (Proverbs 17:27)"

#420826 - 01/03/13 11:49 AM Re: "Mom" vs worthless gay boy/man. [Re: petercorbett]
Jacob S Offline

Registered: 01/01/13
Posts: 550
That's a beautiful letter. The voice of my mother in my head is still too strong for me to be able to make such a list and not have it be just a rattling off of negatives and failures. But I have something to aspire to: to see my life in a different light, as a success based on my own definition of success.
"As long as the child within is not allowed to become aware of what happened to him or her, a part of his or her emotional life will remain frozen . . . all appeals to love, solidarity, and compassion will be useless."
-- Alice Miller


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