I think without being around others in the flesh it ain't happening. I've looked high and low for a support group with CSA (and child abuse) and found zippo. I have no money for shrinks, period. Honestly, I don't need another one lying about themselves and feeding me a bunch of bullshit anyway. I'm too vulnerable and still very angry at the 12 con artists, er, shrinks from my past. It is exactly like being raped what they did to me. I don't know what to do. God has to do something, or this is not gonna work.
A guy opens the front door and sees a snail on his doorstep. He picks up the snail and throws it across the street in a neighbor's yard. A year later, the guy opens the front door and the same snail is on his doorstep. The snail says, "What the f*ck was that about?"