... and I'm terrified of what those who read it will think.

Posting this was the main reason why I joined malesurvivor. I can count the people I've told on my one hand, and I don't know how much longer I can live with this secret. I need to get it out and I thought that a group of fellow abuse survivors would be the easiest place to start. (If anything about this can be called easy...)

It is not like other abuse stories. I did something truly terrible when I was 16, and ever since I've lived my life in terror that someone would find out and tell the rest of the world who and what I really am.

It hasn't been approved yet, but... OMG. I already regret posting it, but I promised myself I'll go through with it...

Hang on Gecko,
Take it easy. You are doing great thing by letting out all that burden.
Don't be hard on yourself. You have my full support no matter how terrible or difficult circumstances could be, OK ?

Pero

Gecko - you are among friends here. you took a courageous step.
i have consistently been surprised at the capacity for compassion i have found among the members here.
Lee