These days I feel like my life is going nowhere. I feel like it will never be different. I'm sure it doesn't help that I work overnights and have no friends. Combine that with my self-destructive behaviors like eating too much and poorly and you have a uphill climb that doesn't seem possible. I keep trying to get a new T. I have a name, I've even called him and gotten a call back with him leaving a message, I was sitting infront of the phone but I couldn't pick up, by the time I started to will myself to do it, it went to voicemail. Was feeling much better when I switched meds but that only lasted a couple of weeks. Don't know what else to say.

Yes, it does get better. Never perfect but, it does get easier to cope and, life does get better for us.

Hang in there, it took me 20 years to really start seeing that it was better, but now, overall, life is good.

thank you blue, I guess after over 8 years it seems a bit grim, but thank you.

Antidepressants work so well for me I don't feel the need for anything else really. Never did find a specialist who would have me. Its probably also that I've been sorting this out very gradually on my own here.