i couldn't remember any names of leaders - and only one name of the older boys that were abusive. i scanned every page, pausing every time i came across a listing for the state where it happened. nothing. they flew beneath the radar, apparently. the files began 2 years after i left at age 13, but many of the same boys and leaders would still have been active members then - so i guess nobody talked. disappointing.
As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago