Hey ((((Scott)))), you moved me really!
I wish that I'm closer to you
I'm sorry man that you are feeling so lonely and that you felt triggered.
I've read your post about reply from rape center that triggered you, it is no wonder that you were felt bad.
Ignorance hurts a lot, it is like shattering and intentionally hurting.
I know that feeling so well. When I was kid I felt like that when I couldn't talk with my parents about some issues. Talking about sex or intimacy was taboo and when I needed it the most I was rejected.
It is true that we all need nap, I wish that you have it around
Please don't be hard on yourself, you are awesome guy, so sensitive and full of empathy. When I see your some post I've got feeling like I know you forever
I love you man
Here is my warmest hug for you