Hi bass drummer.
To be honest, I think lee has given the best advice. I found myself that the best thing I could do was talk about how I was feeling on this site and about my experiences, sinse there were a lot of guys here who could freely understand general feelings of depression as well astriggers and all the rest of it, and would at least be there to listen. I also occasionally got some great advice when there were specific issues I needed to deal with like feelings of worthlessness.
Writing my experiences, writing poetry and writing lots of others things down here was also a great way to get rid of them, or sort them out too.
While I tried a couple of counsellers, (one my university services, neither was really too helpfull in themselves, indeed a couple were down right irritating (I had one who tried to tel me that being born prematurely had affected my unconscious), so while I know there are! people who have found therapists helpfull that wasn't my experience.
If feelings of depression are a real issue, you might also considder some sort of antidepressants. These will not! make anything go away, but can be usefull in just aleviating the affects of bad feelings long enough for you to function and get through things.
i tried them myself for 18 months, but stopped when I considdered that I no longer needed them.
I'm not sure what the process is in newzeeland, but i know here in britain my gp just prescribed them for as long as I needed them.
Above all, take time for yourself. this is your recovery and your experience. whether your on here or not, you are in charge of your own recovery. what you write on here, what you do with your life are all up to you. as is what you do on this site.
There is no set way of recovery just as there are no set stories of abuse, everything is individualized, but at least on this site there are lots of people who are willing to listen and offer advice, ---- which you are free to take or not as you choose.
I really hope some of this will be helpfull to you and that you find this site as usefull in the past as I have.
all the best,