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#413106 - 10/14/12 05:37 PM Was I Raped?
jls Offline


Registered: 03/06/09
Posts: 1142
I've spoken here at length about the forms of sexual abuse that I experienced as a boy but anal penetration is not one of them, that I can recall anyway. However, as a teen I once ended up at this party and was the only kid there. Everyone else there were adults who provided me with lots of alcohol and needless to say I got super drunk. I blacked out and remembered nothing more until the morning where I woke up in the bedroom of the hotel room not knowing how I got there. Upon getting up to go to the bathroom my behind didn't feel right and it felt like there was liquid seeping out. There was also a bunch of writing written all over my lower back which I couldn't make out due to it being smudged but it disturbed me that someone had done this to me all the same. As far as what had happened to my backside I tried to chalk it up to my bowels being in bad shape from being hung over but as I work on my other csa recovery I can't help but wonder more and more about what really happened that night.
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#413156 - 10/15/12 08:07 AM Re: Was I Raped? [Re: jls]
cant_remember Offline
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Registered: 02/26/05
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I think you are answering your own question here. Trust your instincts.
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#413374 - 10/17/12 03:26 AM Re: Was I Raped? [Re: jls]
Mart Offline


Registered: 10/17/12
Posts: 3
I think so. yes.

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#413375 - 10/17/12 03:32 AM Re: Was I Raped? [Re: jls]
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Registered: 10/09/11
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Your memories are kind of triggering for me and I'm afraid that your thoughts have some grounds frown

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