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#413106 - 10/14/12 05:37 PM Was I Raped?
jls Offline

Registered: 03/06/09
Posts: 1142
I've spoken here at length about the forms of sexual abuse that I experienced as a boy but anal penetration is not one of them, that I can recall anyway. However, as a teen I once ended up at this party and was the only kid there. Everyone else there were adults who provided me with lots of alcohol and needless to say I got super drunk. I blacked out and remembered nothing more until the morning where I woke up in the bedroom of the hotel room not knowing how I got there. Upon getting up to go to the bathroom my behind didn't feel right and it felt like there was liquid seeping out. There was also a bunch of writing written all over my lower back which I couldn't make out due to it being smudged but it disturbed me that someone had done this to me all the same. As far as what had happened to my backside I tried to chalk it up to my bowels being in bad shape from being hung over but as I work on my other csa recovery I can't help but wonder more and more about what really happened that night.
Love is better than anger. Hope is better than fear. Optimism is better than despair. So let us be loving, hopeful and optimistic. And we’ll change the world.

#413156 - 10/15/12 08:07 AM Re: Was I Raped? [Re: jls]
cant_remember Offline

Registered: 02/26/05
Posts: 1054
I think you are answering your own question here. Trust your instincts.
Recovery is possible. Hang in there, brothers.

#413374 - 10/17/12 03:26 AM Re: Was I Raped? [Re: jls]
Mart Offline

Registered: 10/17/12
Posts: 3
I think so. yes.

#413375 - 10/17/12 03:32 AM Re: Was I Raped? [Re: jls]
peroperic2009 Offline

Registered: 10/09/11
Posts: 3720
Loc: South-East Europe
Your memories are kind of triggering for me and I'm afraid that your thoughts have some grounds frown

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