so, it seems i'm starting to grieve my father's death. from February 2010. this came up during session with T - I've been so incredibly sad, unable to sleep, and feeling like if someone pushed just a little, I'd break down and cry.
today there were some tears. not a lot. but T says it's a start. I just have to get used to the idea.
but it was a good session. today I could admit I loved my father, and I miss him.
and that's all for now

Mark - that's progress.
painful, but good.
keep on working...

Lee

Mark, I am sorry for your loss.

That you are beginning this is truly progress. Grief is so illusive for survivors, we already feel such depths of remorse, it is difficult to understand loss. I am relieved to hear you have begun to feel this as it may signal a release of shame and remorse. I hope for you fellow survivor.

I too lost my sister in death when she was 18. I did not feel it for years. Please Mark, let me share that discovery with you when you are ready. It was an incredibly cathartic release. Let me know if you are ready for that.

My best to you,
Sam

Mark, my fraternal brother.

I offer you my compassion, understanding, hope & love during this time of your deep pain.

Wishing you all well in healing, my brothers.

"I will take that lost boys hand, and I will lead him from the depths of darkness, into the sunshine, forever into eternity." As he is me.
Pete..Irishmoose.

Lee, Sam, Peter - thank you each for your compassion and understanding. And Lee, should I get to a point where I'm ready - I'll let you know. Right now I'm so extremely shaky and unstable about almost everything - I'm just trying to stay on my feet.....