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#412586 - 10/09/12 11:21 AM and what's THAT about?
MarkK Offline
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Registered: 04/02/07
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Loc: Denver, CO
So I go through the effort of picking through pictures of me growing up because my T wants to look at some childhood pictures with me. I understand, he's looking for things that might bring up at least body memories. I go against my better judgement and take them to my session last night. And my T decided he really didn't want to look at pictures right then, he has other things he wanted to discuss.

Am I wrong in feeling short-changed?? I don't know if I feel more let-down or re-abused. And since the anger and desire to act out are both pretty much even right now - it could be either. Or maybe both.
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#412590 - 10/09/12 11:45 AM Re: and what's THAT about? [Re: MarkK]
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Registered: 10/08/12
Posts: 83
Loc: USA
Not every T is right for everyone. I'd go back, tell this T how that made you feel, then decide if you can continue with that one or, if you need to find a new one.

No you are not wrong to feel short changed. T told you he was going to do something then, didn't follow through, minor perhaps but that's still a break of trust.

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#412607 - 10/09/12 01:24 PM Re: and what's THAT about? [Re: MarkK]
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Agreed.... I'd make it clear to him the level of effort and work you put into it and that him just skipping over it belittled the effort and work it took.

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#412624 - 10/09/12 04:25 PM Re: and what's THAT about? [Re: MarkK]
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Registered: 02/29/12
Posts: 642
Loc: Alabama
Me and that T would have a come to Jesus meeting. Haha. That would not have went well with me.
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#412665 - 10/10/12 12:04 AM Re: and what's THAT about? [Re: MarkK]
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actually i'm more thinking of just quitting this whole T business. what's the point?
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#412666 - 10/10/12 12:37 AM Re: and what's THAT about? [Re: MarkK]
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Registered: 07/13/12
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Wow Mark. One of my worst nightmares. I entirely understand feeling shortchanged and invalidated. I agree w/Blue and Scott.

I don't know the T's intentions, but it seems the last damn thing you need is more invalidation. Especially if it's careless.

At the very least - yeah, I know you feel like quitting - please go back to the T, tell him exactly how you feel about it and see his reaction. Frankly, if it's more invalidation, I'd walk. Simply, some T's aren't equipped to deal with CSA. And, frankly, despite letters after their names, some aren't equipped to even be in the business.

Fortunately, you're in Denver and there are probably plenty of choices out there. Heal well, brother.

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#412686 - 10/10/12 10:34 AM Re: and what's THAT about? [Re: MarkK]
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Registered: 06/27/12
Posts: 336
Hey MarkK, Don't quit T, just quit THAT T. I've seen a few lame, thoughtless therapists and two REALLY good ones that are worth their weight in gold. The payoff from work with a T who clicks with you is HUGE, at least in my experience.

Bob

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#412687 - 10/10/12 10:37 AM Re: and what's THAT about? [Re: MarkK]
Blue1966 Offline


Registered: 10/08/12
Posts: 83
Loc: USA
I know, I'm one to talk since I no longer go to T, but that's after 20+ years of doing it. Find a T that works for you, at least try another one or two before you give up on the idea.

Trust me it's harder when "stuff" comes up and you don't have a T. Not impossible but, a lot harder.

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#412698 - 10/10/12 01:45 PM Re: and what's THAT about? [Re: MarkK]
MarkK Offline
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i will talk to him and hear his side - I trust him enough still to know he will tell me what he was thinking. We'll go from there.
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#412987 - 10/13/12 07:47 AM Re: and what's THAT about? [Re: MarkK]
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Registered: 02/08/12
Posts: 158
Loc: Ontario Canada
I also find that alot of T don't seem to grasp just how hard it is to follow their advice. And how if they diverge from the preset techniques and structure I at least get really messed up. Even the smallest tangent like postponing an appointment for 24 hours has a big impact on my mood and capacity to be an active participant in the process. I need them to follow all the steps they lay out, lest I too start to diverge and miss appointment when it then becomes a downward spiral.
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