Is it worth it? I had no where else to go. It was either deal with it or die. I want to see my grandchildren. There was no other choice for me. Are there times I want to get off this fucking train through hell? You bet. But there don't seem to be any stops. So I keep riding, damn it. Keep riding.....
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell