This is a community of men who have been kicked HARD in the balls. Posting publicly is a courageous first step toward recovery. You did it because you need to deal with the effects of the abuse in your life, and heal. Keep posting and keep listening. There's a life waiting for you as a whole healthy man and its within your power to get there.
"Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry " -Des'ree