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#410868 - 09/20/12 07:44 PM maybe...?
traveler Offline
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Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3373
Loc: somewhere in Africa
an hour or so ago when i logged in to MS i started reading new posts like usual - and was brought to tears twice.

once was by what i see as the best of what we can do FOR one another. it was a note of kindness, support and encouragement that was healing and helpful - and - YES - loving!

the other was by a thread that i see as what we can do TO one another if we are not careful. i don't think anyone really wanted to intentionally hurt or disrespect or alienate anyone else - but things got heated and people got upset and it all went way out of control.

as i was reading - and crying - i was hurting for each one who posted - regardless of which "side" they were on. and i pictured us ALL as scared, hurt, angry, little kids who had been abused. THEY are the ones who were lashing out - and THEY are the ones reacting. the 3-yr-old or 5-yr-old or 12-yr-old or 15-yr-old (sorry if i missed your age!) who was victimized and could do nothing to stop it or resist or repair the devastating effects.

i want to always remember this image when i see someone behaving in a way that i find personally triggering. it is not the fellow-survivor that i am retaliating against - it is a perp in my past. the guy on the MS forums who caused the trigger is another hurting little kid - just like me.

Love Grace & Peace to you ...
Lee
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As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago


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#410876 - 09/20/12 09:54 PM Re: maybe...? [Re: traveler]
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Registered: 05/14/09
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Loc: Northeast, USA
Lee,

Good point you make and thank you for it. I agree, our reactions to each other here are influenced by why we're here. It's good to realize this and it's definitely helpful to remember where we are coming from and what we are ALL dealing with when things do get heated. Keeping an image of that shared "hurt child" inside us all and reminding each other of this child's presence at such times builds a stronger MS community.

Caz
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My avatar is the farmhouse at the Hope Spring, OH WoR. It's a nice place.

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#410892 - 09/20/12 10:50 PM Re: maybe...? [Re: traveler]
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Registered: 08/09/12
Posts: 1510
Loc: New England
Thank you Lee.

Gary
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I went back to the doctor
To get another shrink.
I sit and tell him about my weekend,
But he never betrays what he thinks.
Can you see the real me, doctor?.
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