I guess what I'm trying to say is that we all rely on others to tell us we are OK. And if they don't or we think that they don't we fall apart.
THAT is the very summation-statement I've been searching for.
For me too, in business, I would be d e v a s t a t e d to tears and self-harm if any customer even hinted I did him any dirt. If my company did not follow-through as I said they would, if billing screwed-up, if my product disappointed, I'd be a total mess. To this day, I still cringe, hate myself and regret some sales I made, because the company dropped the ball.
Today, seriously, you guys and my T are the only ones to tell me that. Everyone and everything else tells me otherwise either directly or passively.
I micro-second flashback of childhood can be paralyzing in this same mode. I hope I can leverage all I'm learning here into being as powerful as I thought I was on Drugs & Alcohol
This thread has been an amazing help to me. I don't feel alone, and I have some truly powerful input from ya'll. Seriously all...Thank you!!!!