I guess that ppl could read my mind, it is not so deep a subject now, but it was a big issue for many years.

If I was thinking about my past, I would think that ppl would pick it out on their radar, just as I have radar to keep me safe.

The silence that I kept for so many years, eroded a load of my judgement in life, it was like, I was so far away from my own emotional needs, and the right to live a fulfilling life.

I guess I have done enough whining for now, but these feelings really get to me sometimes,

ste

Ste,

It's not whining bro. If you have feelings about something it's all for the best to talk about them.

I don't remember feeling that people could read my mind, but I did feel like there was something about me that would give me away to anyone who looked for a second. I felt like I had a sign on me. I also absolutely hated being naked in front of other boys (changing rooms at swimming pools, gym class, etc.), for the same reason.

I wonder if the feeling that others could pick you up on their radar has something to do with the feelings of powerlessness and helplessness so many of us had?

Much love,
Larry

Our prison bars usually are, at least to a large extent, built out of our own shame and silence. I believe that speaking out is the only way to break out of that prison.
Thanks, brothers, for showing me your courage here.
Love, etc.,