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While I would say that while flaccid my penis is small when erect it is average or maybe just below average. My being overweight does probably conceal a bit. So for me yes the idea of someone seeing my penis when it is not erect does cause me anxiety. Don't know what to say but I do understand.

during my abuse, i still remember trying to conceal the size of my peanus especially when errect.

nobody made comments about size, but i hated the fact that my erection was visible and not under control. I would've given anything for a smaller, or at least less visible peanus, indeed I remember trying to frantically put books or bags on my lap to conceal the fact sinse I was so scared what would happen if anyone around me saw what my stupid organ was doing, despite the fact that my mind was utterly and completely absent and focused only on being unnoticed.

As I said, i have no idea what the actual size is compared to other blokes, nor do i care, but getting an erection anywhere but in private, on my own in bed at night is still something that I really am afraid of.

indeed, any talk about peanus's generally apart! from on this site I'd view as extremely triggering because of my over all genophobia, even in an academic or supposedly neutral way. i remember particularly in psychology learning freud's theories was extremely difficult, and I still become uncomfortable if in course of my academic research someone start on about those ridiculous, and to my mind utterly insane freudian theories (how anyone still gives them any credit at all i don't know), ---- now if we're talking about obsession with peanus size there! was a man with real problems .

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Yeah, same with me with body memories. I hate how I get erect and I don't even want to. It's, at best, annoying. I hate it. I always hated being male for the fact I can't conceal when I'm aroused (like I fucking want to be?!). You know?

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Wow guys I totally relate on being invalidated, sometimes by people who should know better. @Obi...thank you for expressing your outrage.

To draw a comparison, those of us with depression will understand this. Depression is not a case of the blues. It's not a matter of "getting over it." Yet, I had a T once tell me, "You know what your problem is? You don't do anything until you're backed into a corner!"

I walked out and, in my state of mind at the time, it was lucky I didn't off myself.

So, yeah Obi and others, keep doin' what you're doin', sayin' what you have to say.

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Nobody told anyone to relax, but sorry if I offended you.

Obi I hope you are not relating to my post?
I'm sorry if you are feeling so down. Of course that more or less we all have issues with confidence and masculinity, and this post is in a way about that. It is difficult issue and it is not possible to "get over it".
I just find kind of funny idea that we with not so big penises connect in such way here
Hang on brothers you you are not alone!

Pero