this is powerful stuff, and so positive.
I have been lucky enough to discover just how good it is to help others in some way, however small.
I felt part of the community here all along, but when I was asked to moderate it was a big jump for me. I know 99% of users here are respectful of others so it has to be said it's no great hassle to me, but it does give me a sense of being some kind of help to others, which in turn gives me a renewed sense of self esteem. Something we all need desperately.
I also help at the charity that provided my therapy. One night a week I answer the door buzzer, smile and say "hello", make coffee and hopefully make the clients feel a little bit more comfortable while they're waiting to be seen.
It aint much when it's written down, but sometimes I get to see a smile on the faces of those coming out, and that makes it all worth while. And if they're not smiling I make damn sure I smile at them, I remember how much it helps.
It doesn't matter how much you do for the cause, or who with. The important thing is to get our experiences into the system, we know what goes on. We can smell the fear on another survivor, we recognise the look in their eyes that asks for understanding.
It's why N.O.M.S.V. and the charity I help got started.
Don't give up, but be prepared for some hard times.