I have been through the steps in AA, but I am now revisiting step 3 because I realize I have a lot of anger towards God. Like where was he during my CSA? Why didn't he rescue me?
all i can tell you for sure is - when that happened to you, he wasn't preoccupied in rescuing me!
I hear all sorts of trite sayings: "God has a wonderful plan for your life" "God was there weeping for you" "Put your life and your will in God's hands"
yeah - those cliches drive me crazy, too.
But how do I do that with a God who abandoned me at the most critical point in my life? Does anyone have an answer?
i struggle with that, too, Gary, and have for years. i am stubborn enough not to give up on God - but am very disappointed in his performance. i have read books and talked to wise counselors and have not found an answer that satisfies me.
i wish i could help - both for my sake and yours. there are some threads in the Spirituality forum that deal with this issue. i am not sure i will ever understand it in a way that makes me feel better emotionally - even if i get an answer that makes rational sense. but i no longer feel the anger that i once did. and i am learning to live with the ambiguity of not having all the answers. i think that might be what faith is.
hoping you find a peaceful resolution,