Hell man I don't even know why I do any of the shit I do, but thanks. Half my life is pure instinct, and the other half is trying to create something of a future for myself that isn't compleatly depressing.
Ecb, it may not be so for you, but for me that "pure instinct" is my inner voice (re: the song "The Voice" by The Moody Blues). When I listen to it things usually go pretty well. It's when I don't I get most of my problems...
Maybe that half of your life that is pure instinct
could be your inner voice, which will guide you in that other half, trying to create a positive future for yourself.
The catch of course is in not being afraid to listen to the voice within, and not letting other voices distract you, like the voices of perps. That, I'm still working on, to say the least. But at least I'm working on it...
As far as doing things that will help me heal as opposed to some other reason, I'm still trying to figure out what stuff would help me heal. I suppose I'm not particularly in touch with my own feelings.
My friend, I'm working hard at trying to figure this out for myself right now. And a big part of it is in not being in touch with my own
feelings, as opposed to the feelings of my perps,
the feelings I think others expect of me, etc. (Re: the thread "Emotions Without Feeling.").
Trying to find myself under all the crap...