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#407742 - 08/23/12 10:19 PM QUIET!
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Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3889
Loc: somewhere in Africa
THEN:
“Shut up!”
“Be quiet!”
“Don’t you make a sound!”
“Don't speak a word!”
“Don’t talk about it – to anyone!”
“If you ever say anything...”
“Don’t you dare tell – or else…”
I can’t make any noise or someone will know.
If anyone finds out I will be in big trouble.
They would never believe me.
They would never understand.
I am tongue-tied, gagged, mute, dumb, voiceless,
Unable to utter a thing.
Vocal paralysis has set in.
I may never talk again.
All I hear is:
"BE QUIET!"...

I learned that lesson well
And obeyed it to the letter!
It is hard to break that habit and taboo.

NOW:
“Open up!”
“Tell me what you like.”
“Does this feel good?”
“Just say what you want.”
“Describe what you are feeling…”
"You must talk about it!"
What I’m FEELING?!?!?!
What I LIKE?!?!?!
What feels GOOD?!?!?!
TALK ABOUT IT?!?!?!
What does that even mean?
I CAN”T SAY…


lee


Edited by traveler (08/23/12 10:26 PM)
Edit Reason: add
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"the scariest thing about abuse of any shape or form, is, in my opinion, not the abuse itself, but that if it continues it can begin to feel commonplace and eventually acceptable."
- Alan Cumming, "Not My Father's Son"

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#407744 - 08/23/12 10:54 PM Re: QUIET! [Re: traveler]
Jude Offline


Registered: 08/09/12
Posts: 1633
Loc: New England
A great expression of what its like to have to open up whats been held in for so long. Like pulling teeth from an alligator.
Good job Lee.
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I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Sarah McLachlan

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