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#407742 - 08/23/12 10:19 PM QUIET!
traveler Offline
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Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3323
Loc: somewhere in Africa
THEN:
“Shut up!”
“Be quiet!”
“Don’t you make a sound!”
“Don't speak a word!”
“Don’t talk about it – to anyone!”
“If you ever say anything...”
“Don’t you dare tell – or else…”
I can’t make any noise or someone will know.
If anyone finds out I will be in big trouble.
They would never believe me.
They would never understand.
I am tongue-tied, gagged, mute, dumb, voiceless,
Unable to utter a thing.
Vocal paralysis has set in.
I may never talk again.
All I hear is:
"BE QUIET!"...

I learned that lesson well
And obeyed it to the letter!
It is hard to break that habit and taboo.

NOW:
“Open up!”
“Tell me what you like.”
“Does this feel good?”
“Just say what you want.”
“Describe what you are feeling…”
"You must talk about it!"
What I’m FEELING?!?!?!
What I LIKE?!?!?!
What feels GOOD?!?!?!
TALK ABOUT IT?!?!?!
What does that even mean?
I CAN”T SAY…


lee


Edited by traveler (08/23/12 10:26 PM)
Edit Reason: add
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As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago


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#407744 - 08/23/12 10:54 PM Re: QUIET! [Re: traveler]
Jude Offline


Registered: 08/09/12
Posts: 1490
Loc: New England
A great expression of what its like to have to open up whats been held in for so long. Like pulling teeth from an alligator.
Good job Lee.
_________________________
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "
Joni Mitchell

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