Hi Guys

Thought I would do this for some of the new guys and of course myself.
I joined MS.org on the 7th May 2011, and over the year I have asked questions and the esteemed oldies of MS at the time gave me answers to my questions.

I thought that it might be a good idea if I revisited these old questions and let you all know how I feel now a year later and a hell of a lot of effort later.

The first question I asked was.


NOW
I have since told many many people, the first person I told was my best friend and the response I got from him was absolutely awesome.
Trust me, to build up the courage was S-C-A-R-Y, and it took me a huge amount of time to pluck up the courage.
When I finally told him I kinda blurted it out and was quite shocked at how it came out.
As I say, since then I have told many many people about my abuse and I have become a social activist for survivors in my country.
Don't be afraid, for me this was an incredibly empowering step.
To read the question and the responses go to the Post
If you Guys like Ill do a few more of these. Let me know

Heal well
Martin

This is a good idea, Martin. Please continue.

Martin -

congratulations on your progress - and well done!

Lee

Going through My early days here I noticed that I didnt really ask a lot of questions.
I replied to many many posts and well it worked.
All here need to notice that I am a totally different person today, My thoughts are clear, my desire to act out negatively is gone, my addictions are all but gone (Besides MS of course) and I am helping other men in my country.

My next post was about spiralling down and feeling like I was loosing my healing gains.
I wrote this asking for advice

The Post

So I suppose it is obvious that this is one of those times where I had a bit of a set back, but came back with flying colours.
I gotta also tell all that whilst I was going through the healing process, I felt like it would never end, I felt like I would never get well.
It does get better and no matter what comes your way you can get better.

Heal well all
Martin

Hi Guys

Well a question that got a really good response at the time was one about Sex.



Now
Well thing is that there are two parts to this, good and bad.
The good
I am crazy about sex these days, I love it and kinda want to catch up. I no longer go to bed with Barbie Boobs and porn star Alexis in my head any more and only desire to be with and have my wife. So once I had stopped the acting out with porn and masturbation, I started to feel again, and feeling is great.
The Bad
Now that I am not acting out I have these intense feelings, I don't mean I cry every five seconds, but I am incredibly sensitive and every touch and every sensation is Like WOOOW.
This kinda puts me on the Pre Ejaculation scale. My staying power sucks. Now this doesn't bother me to much, but I gotta imagine that it is a little unsatisfying for lovey.
Now I know why they invented Viagra.

Read the whole Post

Heal well Guys
Martin

Martin,

It sounds like you have come a long way in a year... I hope to see progress myself like you have had. I can relate to the telling secrets to friends and the sex part, Both which I am still dealing with now. I have told a few friends and had better responses than I thought I ever would... The sex part for me - I still feel like a failure at... but am hoping for growth in this area - but I guess it will just take time.

Keep healing - again, sounds like you are doing really well after a year of recovering...
Job
www.coresaving.com

Martin,
Thank you for doing this! It is assuring and inspiring to see that progress can be made. Im 4 months in and it rough. Reading your reflections is like collecting evidence. It allows me to have hope it will get better and imagine that some day I too will be able to see my progress with a little perspective.

The next post was




This is today still an incredibly painful event in my life, but for the right reasons. I have such a deep empathy for what our friends went through and still do today. I do however understand the emotions and the tears that people have when someone passes.
I think that today I would cry if our cats passed.
Sometimes the emotions are overwhelming, but thats great, at least I am not the heartless swine that I thought I was, the emotional retard.
I am not perfect yet, but I am a hell of a lot better, and Ill take this victory over the empty shell that I was for decades anytime.

BTW A Big BTW, this certainly was not the last step in my healing path. I was to find out that there would be many many more painful experiences waiting for me. Perhaps even now there are some hiding and waiting?

Read the POST here.

Heal well all
Martin

I have been a rock in the past too. I like these post and seeing the feelings and emotions. Let's me know I am normal. Ha. Or normal as I can be

I had a problem with telling my brother at one stage.



Well the good news is that my brother is doing a lot better. We as brothers actually talk to each other these days. My brothers stay all over the world and the oly way that we can keep in touch is over the chat forums available like Watts App etc.
The other day we chatted the whole day and had each other in fits of laughter. It was the most we had spoken in over 20 years.

Read the Full POST here

Heal well all
Martin