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#407051 - 08/17/12 02:42 AM Depression
Aries1984 Offline

Registered: 04/08/12
Posts: 29
Loc: Chicago
I guess I would call it depression but I dont know honestly what to call it. I want help but feel like I dont deserve it and if I do then where do I go to get it. I want to heal but I am still in the same town and pass almost everyday the place where the abuse happened. I think I might be feeling this way cause I did in fact pass and see the exact place it happened and it triggered me, I had flashbacks and a panic attack. I dont know how to exactly describe what I've been feeling all week other than a feeling of fear and anxiety. Any suggestions? I want a sponsor that I talk to but I havent started therapy, I dont know where to start looking. So lost and confused
It is not the destination so much as the journey!!

#407063 - 08/17/12 08:33 AM Re: Depression [Re: Aries1984]
Casmir213 Offline

Registered: 05/14/09
Posts: 851
Loc: Northeast, USA

If you have the means to afford therapy, a good place to start your search for a therapist is Click the "Find a Therapist" tab and it gives options of which city, town, zip code you want to find a therapist in. Then it also has a picture of the therapist, contact info, and info about the therapist/therapy.

You might want to avoid the place where the abuse happened if you can, at least until you are in therapy and can deal with what is triggered in a supportive and trusting relationship with the therapist.

I see recovery as a lifelong journey rather than a final destination, a journey, though, which can have many successes along the way.

WoR Alumnus - Hope Springs, OH, October 2009

My avatar is the farmhouse at the Hope Spring, OH WoR. It's a nice place.

#407064 - 08/17/12 09:03 AM Re: Depression [Re: Aries1984]

Registered: 08/31/11
Posts: 2683

I have felt the way you feel--I know it is overwhelming--the feeling of despair and worthlessness. But as Casmir said, talk to someone, a therapist, also some medications may help to relieve the anxiety and depression--see a doctor or psychiatrist. Many times a psychiatrist and therapist work together--one for medication management and the other for the talk and therapy.

I know you will find the help you need


#407095 - 08/17/12 12:37 PM Re: Depression [Re: Aries1984]
Jude Offline

Registered: 08/09/12
Posts: 1633
Loc: New England

Thanks for sharing your pain. Its a good first step...and you can follow through by connecting with a live body who can help you heal. Take some of the guy's advice above. All of us have been, and are still in your shoes. You're not alone...we're always here for you.
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Sarah McLachlan


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