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#406236 - 08/08/12 08:49 PM split decision *TRIGGERS*
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Split decision

I hate them
Their brutal careless strength,
Their sweat, their dirt, their body odor,
Their dominating sexual aggression.
Being restrained, controlled, manipulated,
Forced to submit, forced to be passive,
Forced to respond against my will,
My body betraying me to side with the enemy,
I was forced to be their tool and their toy.

I love them
Their strong male personae,
Their supple shifting muscles,
Their gleaming wet bodies,
Hair in plastered patterns,
Acting on instinct sure and secure,
Self-possessed and confident,
Uncaring of the consequences;
I still worship, captive at their idol altars.

lee


Edited by traveler (08/08/12 10:56 PM)
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We are often troubled, but not crushed;
sometimes in doubt, but never in despair;
there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend;
and though badly hurt at times, we are not destroyed.
- Paul, II Cor 4:8-9

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#406276 - 08/09/12 08:21 AM Re: split decision *TRIGGERS* [Re: traveler]
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Registered: 10/09/11
Posts: 3599
Loc: South-East Europe
Hey Lee,
this reminds me about your writings in Stockholm syndrome thread. I almost can see "him" (perfect male - bad guy) trough reading this poem.
It seems to me that you've moved so much since than!
Keep sharing with us smile!
Pero
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#406285 - 08/09/12 09:38 AM Re: split decision *TRIGGERS* [Re: traveler]
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thanks, Pero.

i can always depend on you to be encouraging.
i wasn't feeling so good until you reminded me that i've moved ahead since then.

Lee
_________________________
We are often troubled, but not crushed;
sometimes in doubt, but never in despair;
there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend;
and though badly hurt at times, we are not destroyed.
- Paul, II Cor 4:8-9

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#406372 - 08/10/12 09:47 AM Re: split decision *TRIGGERS* [Re: traveler]
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wow traveler ,powerful poetry and so relevant. keep on writing keep on pushing through. your great man
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Towards thee I roll, thou all-destroying but unconquering whale; to the last I grapple with thee; from hell's heart I stab at thee; for hate's sake I spit my last breath at thee. let me then tow to pieces, while still chasing thee, thou damned whale! Thus, I give up the spear!"
Herman Melville

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#406533 - 08/12/12 04:08 AM Re: split decision *TRIGGERS* [Re: traveler]
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thanks, newground.

sometimes i just throw it out there because it feels better afterwards - like vomiting. and afterwards there is some relief of lessening of the pain - like i really am expelling something toxic.

lee
_________________________
We are often troubled, but not crushed;
sometimes in doubt, but never in despair;
there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend;
and though badly hurt at times, we are not destroyed.
- Paul, II Cor 4:8-9

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