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#40544 - 04/23/05 10:36 PM Thank you for being here for me.
Ivanhoe Offline
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Registered: 03/19/03
Posts: 1907
I found this place, in the evening of the 18th of March, 2003. What is that, 2 years and a month? I canít believe that, because it feels like several years; several years of remembering more than just several years. It was two years filled with all of the stuff thatís been swirling around in my head, forever.

Maybe some of you donít know, but Iím probably the oldest member here, whoís done therapy several times during the last 50 years. This time itís gunna take, though, I got a therapist whoís been around the mountain with a couple of us kinda guys. You know, guys, who got interfered with and then grew up thinking that it was our own fault.
Well, I hope that all of you are finally getting that, that it wasnít our fault. Being here, you must know that weíre not alone, right?

Iím writing this, this afternoon, to say how much you all have meant to me. Iíve met some pretty incredible people here, some of you who were willing to sit up all night if thatís what it took to quell the demons inside of me. I hope that youíll be there for those of us who may also need that kind of TLC.

Donít be afraid to give your love away here, it always comes back double fold. I will always be grateful for those of you, who were, and are, always there for those of us too weak, at the moment, to make it on our own.

After having discussed my happening recovery, my therapist thinks that my moving on is a good thing. I can tell you that it isnít without fear and trepidation. Not nearly what I felt approaching this site. So the coming was fearful and the going is with some sadness but with hope in my heart that Iím winning this battle, and that youíre winning yours, too.

I will miss some of you more than I can express, but my therapist has pointed out to me that I may have used this place as a distraction to finding out who I really am, and what it was that got forgotten, what it was that I wanted to do with my life, all of these many years ago.

Take care of one another, as you have me, and remember always that Iíll never forget you, the men who helped me grow into the man I am, the one who can now take this important next step in my life.

May you receive the gifts of life for which you are all so deserving,

Sincerely,

David

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"No soul is desolate as long as there is a human being for whom it can feel trust and reverence."
George Eliot

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#40545 - 04/23/05 11:01 PM Re: Thank you for being here for me.
reality2k4 Offline
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Registered: 07/06/04
Posts: 6838
Loc: Stuck between water, air, and ...
David, if you must go, then that is your decision.
I came to this place not knowing who I am, I came here with a raft of problems and issues that I could never address, because I never met anyone who went through the same problems as a kid.
At least though, I got to the strongest point in my life, and that was, I was never alone, I was never weak like I always got told n stuff.
My spirit as a child was broken, taken away, and I never thought I could find the answers to all the despair, and we all know how deep that can be.
You have been a great inspiration to us all here, and yes you will be sadly missed, but drop by sometime and say hello.
I think that if you can just help one other to feel better about something, then at least it can give you some fulfillment in life.
To have people who really care, is a rare commodity in this World.
I came further through recovery through being here with people who have been there, to just maybe share the hurt.

I pray to God that this place should never be,
but without this place,
then were would we be?

I dunno,

just thnx,

ste

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#40546 - 04/24/05 12:02 AM Re: Thank you for being here for me.
ak Offline
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Registered: 01/10/04
Posts: 1491
David,

thank you for being one of most welcome people to me here, and away of here. You are missed, you have been missed, and you will be missed. But to think that it is something good for you to do, that is something powerful and good. I hope you know how much good you have done here, and how much you have done for people here. I wish I could have had time to give back to you so much as you give to me.

I wish you safe travels and lighter heart.

Love,
Andrei


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#40547 - 04/24/05 12:55 AM Re: Thank you for being here for me.
Muldoon Offline
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Registered: 05/30/02
Posts: 1428
Loc: St Paul MN
Man David what can I say. It makes me sad to think that you have to move on away from this place to get well. Your hard work here has been such an good thing for so many.

I know that you have to do what is best for yourself. Take care my brother,hope to hear from you on the other side of RECOVERY. Tom

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#40548 - 04/24/05 11:30 PM Re: Thank you for being here for me.
Lloydy Offline
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Registered: 04/17/02
Posts: 7071
Loc: England Shropshire
David
I think you know exactly 'who you are' but the therapist might well be right when he say's that being involved here could be a distraction at a time when you need to be focused on yourself.

We'll miss your hard work behind the scenes, and above all your constant support for every other Survivor here. So don't feel bad about accepting our support, if it's your turn now, then take all the support you need, and come back when you're ready.

Dave

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Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.
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#40549 - 04/24/05 11:50 PM Re: Thank you for being here for me.
RICK57 Offline
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Registered: 12/31/03
Posts: 1611
Loc: ENGLAND
David - just remember that you were one of the people that plowed the fields here, planted the seeds for everyone else to grow.

If you need to come back for the harvest, we will be here to celebrate with you.

May your steps be on solid ground...Rik

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*Never look down on anybody unless you're helping them up.
*I was seeking a way of expressing my anger - I found hope!
*There are many battles before the war is won! It can be won!

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#40550 - 04/25/05 12:00 AM Re: Thank you for being here for me.
markgreyblue Offline
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Registered: 12/19/03
Posts: 5400
Loc: Pasadena, CA
Thank You David for helping me as well.
Good Luck
and thank you -

it is hard to let go

mark

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"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous



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#40551 - 04/25/05 12:19 AM Re: Thank you for being here for me.
James_dup1 Offline


Registered: 04/13/02
Posts: 1332
Loc: Wyoming
David,
Your wisdom and kindness and selfless giving of yourself will be truly missed. I'm an "oldie" as well, remembering the old web address and all (in fact I still have it booked marked). Growth beyond needing MS is a bitter/sweet place to be in. I'm sure the founding fathers never wanted any of to be here forever. The growth you have done over the last two years has been an honor to watch. Thank you for letting me watch you grow into the man you always knew you were. Also, thank you for giving of yourself as a member of the board for all those of us who couldnt. The things you did for us behind the sences will go on for years to come. Men who come here will reap from your hard work.

I know you would be one of the first to tell some new here welcome, take your time, and first and for most take care of themselves. Well my friend now it's your turn. Take care of yourself. Your wit and wisdom will leave a hole that will be hard to fill in the majic of MS.

((((((((((((((((((((peace to you and yours))))))))))))

James

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#40552 - 04/25/05 03:33 AM Re: Thank you for being here for me.
Nathan LaChine Offline
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Registered: 02/22/03
Posts: 5378
Loc: Washington State
David,

Take care of your self my friend, my brother, my mentor. The time we have spent together has helped me overcome my own abuse. We will always be friends and brothers. Always take care of your self bro.

loving you always, Nathan


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