this thread is amazing.
i feel like i just went through everything you went through, buffaloCO, only on fast forward.
lots of resonance.
i get called "anger man", "psycho", "rage-aholic", "control freak", "power tripper".
but i don't see myself that way.
i have a bad reputation based on past behavior,
the reputation is harder to get rid of than the behaviour.
i am not angry all the time, but i can blow up.
i even wrote a poem about it. http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...5609#Post435609
i don't respond nicely to threats.
i have had to learn how to distinguish the difference between a genuine threat and a perceived threat.
i have had to learn how to prepare a proper response as opposed to my programmed reaction.