Welcome to MS.
I am glad you have found this place of healing and support.
You are not whining.
Things do seem to come easier to others than it does for us. And it is not for a lack of trying. Quite the opposite, actually. We try extremely hard and yet we seem not to succeed, at least not to the extent/ degree to which we think we should be succeeding.
That can change, especially with the help of a good therapist. So can the choices we make or the need to numb ourselves to the emotions we feel.
If you choose to see a therapist at some point, you parents do not need to know why. If you are not ready to tell them it is becuase of the abuse(s) you endured, you can tell them it is to help you make healthier choices, etc. There are many reasons why someone chooses to see a therapist.
We face a lot of challenges that others do not. That is not a rationalization or an excuse, just a statement of fact.
I hope you can see your decision to post here as the big step it is and that you recognize the courage it took for you to post. There are many who come here who are never able to take that big step.
Take your time and look around. You do not want to trigger yourself by reading too many posts at one time.
At your own pace, read the boards and wander into chat. The lounge (chat) is open 24 hours a day though it isn't always populated.
We also have moderated chats called Healing Circles.
They meet on Sunday and Wednesday evenings at 9pm eastern time and one on Tuesday at 19:00 UTC (European and African time zone) which translates to 2 PM Eastern US time zone. The Healing Circle on Tuesdays is scheduled to resume in September.
Again, welcome to MS.