Which is worse?
a hole, a void, a lack, an absence?
Or a step-father:
angry, demeaning, cruel, abusive?
Even a real father:
cold, perfectionistic, rejecting, unloving?
And how could you compare?
I know the first and second – but not the third.
My half-brother knows only the third – not the others.
We cannot measure and compare all three.
Even though two out of three
are one and the same.
As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago