good work with the honesty! we all need each other. we've got your back, man.
rest assured that there is almost nothing that you can say here that is motivated by honesty and a desire to heal and connect (as long as it is not abusive of others) that will get you condemned or shunned.
you are a wounded soldier - like the rest of us. we love and support you.
carry on. you are on the right road. don't stay away too long.
We are often troubled, but not crushed;
sometimes in doubt, but never in despair;
there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend;
and though badly hurt at times, we are not destroyed.
- Paul, II Cor 4:8-9