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#402216 - 06/30/12 02:30 PM WAS THIS A RAPE I NEED YOUR CONSULTATION!!!!!
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hello can u help me to determine my relationships to one person his name is Mantas he is dead from 2007 years spring (he died in a car accident) i am interested do i hate him,or am i feeling sympathy or antipathy or maybe i am not feeling nothing towards him (but thats impossible i am quite sure about that) he was approximateley one year older than i (now i am 26 years old) so he was my neighbour his parents were seriuosly addicted to alcohol and he and his family were biggest vermins in our town Mantas had two brothers that where bigger than he.Those two brothers hated Mantas they called him not by name but by awful nickname in our language so i was beaten by two other neighboors badly i lost my consciousness from puches of those two neighboors one has tied my and hardly kicked my balls i was 4 years and i started to torture animals cats,dogs,frogs, etc. and i started to beat other children first i beated mantas when he came to me once i beated him so the blood come from his nose but i dont know why he came to my home every day so one day i sayed to him you will die from my hand i dont know how i didnt see any porno pictures or movies before i understood how to rape and i raped him and i have lost my virginity that day i debaged his pants ant pushed over him on the bed and started to make love to him and then suddenly my grandmother entered that room mantas was ashamed he quickly hide himself under the bed my grandmother leaned to him and asked Mantai why did you do a thing like that so he was innocent but he was blamed so then he started to hate older persons whole his life overall i have to say that he was a monster he baked pancakes to his grandmother then he spitted on it,or brushed his naked ass with a pancake and gave it to his grandma to eat,he called his grandma banana,or cowshit he is onestly once have sayed that he hates older people so in our little town Jurbarkas where people know each other for some people he was a authority and the subject of great fear he was in court for robbing a woman,and for assault and robberty when he putted a knife to one guys neck and stole in that way a mobile phone,many things our police didnt know about him because many people didnt tell a police about black jobs of Mantas because they were affraid of revenge of Mantas.after fifth grade he was kicked out of our gymansium and he went to the school which was for baddest children of Jurbarkas it was like jail,and there mantas was bullying one girl when she told the police he was taken (by police) to the psychiatrist,he was sneering from all the people from our city he was given nicknames to all of his neighboors he spited on the back of his neighboors when they didnt see that as i remember him he did nothing only sneering and sneering from all the people around him, one day a teacher from that "jail" come with concern to mantas he was wondering why mantas has skipped a few weeks in school.mantas was had a penis in his anal hole by other scumbag of our city but despite all he managed to find a girlfriend when we were 15-17 years old she was my classmate from small vilage near our city Jurbarkas she was also from alcoholic family.Mantas didnt had any job until he was 17-18 years old he started to work to make tombstones he was good at work once his coworker sayed mantas is toughest tombstone maker in our job.But mantas told us guys dont tell enyone that i am coolest tombstone maker he was ashamed of legal work.he wanted to do criminals carrer.he always wanted to be a part or a leader of mafia family He sayed a lot of times that guys how much our local gang had to be beaten until everyone started to fear of them and respect them (in crimanl world).he very loved a pc game hitman about assassin he made a barcode on his shaved head like in the game had a hitman,he was beaten by the police not once when police were interrogating him,and also he has beaten a lot of people of our town he has confilcts with lots of people from our town with women and men it doesnt matter to him,once he spitted the windows of our friend Andrius the last years of his life he has bought a car from his sallary from tombstone work.but he had no driving licence so he was chased by police more than 3 times he had a fine which consisted of three digits,once he was runnig from police with his car and he managed to demolish electric post near our home.when we where about 14 years old we went to lake and there he pooped into the water and tooked feces with his hand and he was throwing it to me and other friend his name was Karolis his parents has divorced his stepfather was a exprisoner he was constantly beating Mantas mother with the stick to the head there were wounds on her head and that stepfather was constantly chasing after Mantas to beat him too.so his brother Andrius was at a childrenshome until he was 18 years,what did other Mantas brother Gintaras i dont know.i remember there was a dishes at Mantas home to collect waterdrops from the roof after rainy day because roof was with holes.mantas has cheated once his girlfrien her name was Lina and Lina knew that so she cheated him too and then he started to beat her constantly so they splitted up.Even his brother told me that mantas is some kind of maniac.Mantas has bought a weapon and started to threat to his exgirlfriends boyfriend.once mantas has broke a window with his fist when was drunk i remember his arm was all covered in blood.he was drinking constantly later he started to smoke marichuana.he drank with local gang mambers.so you know approximately his psychological portret.now i will tell about our relationships which our local psychologist called complicated and sayed do you personally feel raped if so go to local psychologist.but onestly i dont know if i am raped by him.so one day when i was 12 he 13 years old he met me at a city by accident and told me only me because i had a sexual relationships with him before when we were 4-5 years old and i forgot to mention that we masturbated then each other when we slept in one bed.onestly i was masturbating him but when he started to masturbate me i kicked him out of the bed with my legs.so when he had anal sex with other person also scumbag he told only me and offered me to take his penis to my anal hole i accepted i dont know why but when he has putted his penis in my anus i felt pain it is called anodyspareunia and i didnt wanted to continue it not only one time.i wasnt homosexual but circumstances was that i had anal sex with him for about 5-6 years we had about 60-100 sexual intercourses.he was beaten me once i had so big trauma.when he had finished putting his penis to my anus (all inercourses were the same he puts his penis to my anus) i never putted my penis to his anus never.so i need to forgive him i think i have decided to forgive him on 2006.june 24 day (i know what forgiveness is i have forgave my mother for her past mistakes abortion and other awful things) and i am thinking i am forgiving mantas for every sexual inercourse every month sometimes it takes too months to forgive i am writing in my pc every date when i feel relief it lasts for about 5 seconds.mantas once has beaten me so that i lost cousciuosness and my head was hitting brick wall from his punches i am so confused i dont know what i am feeling to mantas psychologis told me that i am feeling variuos feeling towards him.once i have told elder friend that we had sex and i blamed mantas so i betrayed him and that elder friend started to blackmail me he told me give me something valueable so i wont tell no one that you two had sex.but i have helped Mantas as well - once he had stolen his car from his brother and made a car accident and i payed for that accident but he was fault for that accident he was driving that car,he had never returned me that money,on christmas i gave him a mobile phone as a present it was a best phone at that time but he selled that mobile phone because he needed money to buy a car.after that he was fucking me into my ass as before,i am sleeping bad i am getting up 4-5 times per night. when i am sleeping i have dreams about mantas and when i woke up for moment i dont know if he is dead or alive,i am constantly crying,maybe i agrred with his offer to have sex from fear.so overall he was a monster like one woman from movie that movie is called monster that woman was killing men she was scumbag also and was raped more that once maybe you had seen that movie.so help me to understand if i am raped will it be a rape type of romeo and juliette or prison rape or other type of the rape it is found on wikipedia.org please write me a answer

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#402284 - 07/01/12 11:46 AM Re: WAS THIS A RAPE I NEED YOUR CONSULTATION!!!!! [Re: k1985]
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#402285 - 07/01/12 11:54 AM Re: WAS THIS A RAPE I NEED YOUR CONSULTATION!!!!! [Re: k1985]
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