Lifes a Dream, dont take it personally it may be more to do with her than you, I know my Mum has such low self esteem, she couldnt possibly see what is really happening in her childrens lives because she may have to question her ability as a parent. If we are not perfect, how could they have been perfect parents that made perfect choices?? Maybe that is why it is such an unbearable place to go for them, doesnt help you, I know, Im feeling your pain buddy. As you saw i had a melt down over it the other day, i think mum would have done things differently if she had of known what the consequences of her choices were. But she couldnt do what she didnt know how to. I think at the moment she cant hear what i have to say because she is beating herself up over the fact that she didnt know then what she does know now. I dont know i could be wrong, but this makes it bearable, most of the time, for me, and I cant change her. At the end of the day i know she would take it all away for me if she could, and she probably thinks that making light of it or dismissing my thoughts is making it feel better for me because im not dwelling on it.
My mum has often asked me if im looking for someone to blame, my gut tells me, that even if i dont blame her, somewhere in her head she does.
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