I've just seen your other post where you talking about attending WOR and seeing your self as not so successful as other survivors. Someone asked question what is success in that post.
Well let me tell you something, if I could chose I would like more to be married and have wife and child than to have some high positioned career. Happiness is not somewhere outside of us, we all have to find it in our hearts.
You already achieved so much, give some credit to yourself, you deserve it man!
I can't wait to find some more gems from you and your life, I have some feeling that there is much more