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#398704 - 05/29/12 04:06 PM Throwing myself a big ol pity party
NCguy88 Offline


Registered: 05/13/12
Posts: 76
See I guess that one of my problems is I am here but I don't feel like I'm really here, I can't concentrate, I have all theses questions that I am trying to sort in my head all at the time, I am dealing with PTSD, SAD, Depression, my nerves are shot, I physically shake from wake to sleep and I only sleep 4-5 hours a sleep at night despite taking sleeping medication.

The only support I have is my Psy & therapist that I see every 2 weeks and you guys. I have my wife who has been a great source of support but I can't talk to her about everything, cause she has no idea any of the answers.

I am trying to come to terms with my sexuality while being married to a woman and trying to be the best straight acting husband and father I can be.

I can't deal with my life right now, I am still trying to work in a store with hundreds of faces looking at me every day, people tapping their toes or fingers at me, people getting bitchy waiting on other people that take forever, and of course the people who try to figure me out.

I'm sorry if I come across desperate, clingy, confused, needy etc. I am just trying desperately to understand who I am and who I was meant to be and how to deal with everything in between.

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#398714 - 05/29/12 04:48 PM Re: Throwing myself a big ol pity party [Re: NCguy88]
ANDREW63 Offline


Registered: 08/27/11
Posts: 164
Loc: Australia
Hi Mate, you can't have a party on your own ,so if it is OK i'll invite myself along as i am sure a lot of other guys will too ,we are all here for you Mate .please remember you are not alone .Andrew.
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#398716 - 05/29/12 04:54 PM Re: Throwing myself a big ol pity party [Re: ANDREW63]
NCguy88 Offline


Registered: 05/13/12
Posts: 76
Sounds great to me, misery loves company..pull up a seat smile

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#398717 - 05/29/12 05:01 PM Re: Throwing myself a big ol pity party [Re: NCguy88]
ANDREW63 Offline


Registered: 08/27/11
Posts: 164
Loc: Australia
Hi Mate !!!!!! thanks for the invite .Andrew.
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#398718 - 05/29/12 05:16 PM Re: Throwing myself a big ol pity party [Re: NCguy88]
NCguy88 Offline


Registered: 05/13/12
Posts: 76
Welcome crazy

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#398765 - 05/30/12 03:33 AM Re: Throwing myself a big ol pity party [Re: NCguy88]
ANDREW63 Offline


Registered: 08/27/11
Posts: 164
Loc: Australia
Hi Longroad37, Thanks for the WELCOME Mate ,how is Ohio this time of year , it is raining here in Brisbane ,cold wet and miserable brrrrrr .Andrew
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#398768 - 05/30/12 03:41 AM Re: Throwing myself a big ol pity party [Re: NCguy88]
NCguy88 Offline


Registered: 05/13/12
Posts: 76
It's been pretty warm, sprinkled a little bit here earlier. For about the last week it's been in the 90's or close to it which is pretty warm for this time of year.

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#398781 - 05/30/12 05:39 AM Re: Throwing myself a big ol pity party [Re: NCguy88]
ANDREW63 Offline


Registered: 08/27/11
Posts: 164
Loc: Australia
Hi Mate, thanks for your reply , here for you Mate if you want to PM me always happy to catch up .Andrew .
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#398794 - 05/30/12 08:01 AM Re: Throwing myself a big ol pity party [Re: NCguy88]
NCguy88 Offline


Registered: 05/13/12
Posts: 76
Thank you, I appreciate that!

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