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#397582 - 05/17/12 08:21 PM Re: Gotta face it - maybe [Re: Still]
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It went badly, so I disapeared. I apparently posted bout Donna Summer though. I LOVE her. (Loved) And BTW: I'm fkg sick of my people dyeing.
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#397748 - 05/19/12 03:52 AM Re: Gotta face it - maybe [Re: Still]
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meaning ... what?

dissociation episode?

was it the triggering circumstances of the appt or the med results that were bad?

can you remember?

are you gonna be OK?

Lee
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#397758 - 05/19/12 10:57 AM Re: Gotta face it - maybe [Re: Still]
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Having to tell one non-med professional "the sitch." Having to go into WHY things are bloody and hurt to the non-pro and the blank-stare doctor.

I went on auto-pilot like many times in life and ignored what was happening in real life.

Didn't disappear enough apparently cuz I cry at the drop of a hat thinking about having to have this done (June 4).

But according to the many sheets of custom instruction in my car, I will be put-out with propophal (sp).
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#397766 - 05/19/12 12:42 PM Re: Gotta face it - maybe [Re: Still]
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Robbie,

I'm also due to be scoped out in about 2 weeks. I've put it off too long. I told them to knock me out well because I was abused as a child and I don't like being messed around with down there. The hardest part is the pre-cleaning that has to be done the day before. A long time ago my doc found a calcified (turned to stone) scar on my anus.

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#397768 - 05/19/12 02:04 PM Re: Gotta face it - maybe [Re: Still]
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I think there are very very few incidents in a life that will cause a child and adult to feel ANY more vulnerable than with sexual assault. Even in lock-up situations, I've felt vulnerable, but nothing like in childhood.

This sense of vulnerability is a massive element of my stress with the scope. Being knocked-out, being messed with there, not knowing what will and did happen.

I'm truly trying to develop a positive attitude, without panic and without fear eating me up. June 4 is a LONG way away when yer chest is aching from anxiety and hands shaking in panic.

I'm also hoping the Doc will find the car keys I swallowed at 3yrs-old. My father keeps asking for them back. (see???? Gallos humor)
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#397812 - 05/20/12 03:30 AM Re: Gotta face it - maybe [Re: Still]
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Robbie & Puffer -

i had a colonoscopy a couple years ago.

i was put under completely.

it wasn't as bad as i feared.

they gave me a nifty CD video of the procedure so i can really get into myself!!! that was the part that really creeped me out.

i don't know if that procedure is anything like what you are facing.

for me the more traumatic procedure was a vasectomy - cuz one of my perps (step-father) had threatened me with castration. 1 was so stupid - i didn't even make the connection til i was on the operating table and about to go under. i flipped out.

so i think i get the level of anxiety - but in a different area...

i'll be hopefully awaiting good results (please -!)

Lee
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#403459 - 07/13/12 12:27 AM Re: Gotta face it - maybe [Re: Still]
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It all went well...cept now my asthma has gone all category-10 on me. Literally stopped breathing the other day. Doc was pissed I never even went to the ER...but I have my own nebulizer (which is all the hosp uses). LOL...seems nothing will kill me though.
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#403573 - 07/13/12 10:51 PM Re: Gotta face it - maybe [Re: Still]
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Rob -

glad the procedure went well.

now just keep breathing! is that an effect of the anxiety, maybe?

Lee
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#403693 - 07/15/12 02:26 PM Re: Gotta face it - maybe [Re: Still]
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Another small victory for one of us is a victory for us all.

Congrats on getting through it, Rob. You're stronger now.
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