Jayy - brave step you took. i think you did the right thing. i wanted to suggest it but was afraid you were so dependent upon the living situation that it would either be impossible for you to do - or that you would find it too traumatic to leave one of the few sources of (admittedly mixed!) emotional support.
you are taking control of your life. that is such a good thing.
As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago