i have been scared right out of my self of late, been more open with counsiler, the pictures have substance, a sickening gloss, have been haveing hard time staying in body,i have spoke more to the wife and am very terrofied of every fucking thing in site,the doc up the meds, some times i think that that moment of giving in or up is to fucking painful to do, it hurts to think of a releif, you know something i dont diserve, im still fearing the lose of nothing......

Sounds very painful. Make sure to use your support now when it is bad. One day at a time, sometimes it is one hour at a time. You are in my thoughts, keep in touch now esp. since you are struggling.

its been a while, have this terrified i just cant shake, allwise going back to hating this world,im not able to make the change or that step off the cliff,blind fath in this area i cant precive the concept, allwise tired, wanting to go to sleep and not wake till my mind comes up with the solution..
still breathing..

Take small steps. It is very hard to deal with these issues. Take care of yourself.
Try to find some good in each day for your own sanity. Keep in touch.

Hope you are doing ok Thunderboldt.
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take care buddy.

Thunderboldt, how did the holiday season treat you? Hope you are doing ok.

Thunderboldt

hope you are fine, take it easy buddy

have a question to ask you and all, why does
opening the flood gates, feelso painful?
ive posted a topic with question.

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You can get through the pain and find joy on the other end.

Feelings are neither good nor bad they just are.

hang in there.