I was abused from ages 7to 9 or so, and I recall as I approached adolescence that I never seemed aroused or stimulated in any sexual way towards anything aat all. I hav looked at porn sitea both gau and straight, evem questioned whether I was becoming am abiser myself, bit havenever felt any kind pf sexualization at all. Even whem viewing a porn pic or video, I dont fpcus on the act, I focus on the expression, the faces looking for an answer to why or do they feel how I feel...i find these compulsive behaviors worst after a flashback or mightmare pf the abuse... Does anyone else cope with this, am I the only ome... How do I overcome it... How do I live a healthy sex life...
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